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Enver Gortash ([personal profile] closeyourfist) wrote in [community profile] blueprints_bloodstains2024-08-24 11:30 am

Toppling from Cauldron to Blaze

Orin's stone has been obtained.

Enver Gortash is just coming into the floor of his office when the voice touches his mind. Familiar, though heavier. Closer. Like breath he can feel on the back of his neck.

Anticipation. He feels it himself, the sudden rush and thrill of the dawning thought that there were no steps but the last at this point. Soon the Dark Urge and the rest of the rogue True Souls would return and they would journey to the Underground to finish this. The Elder Brain would at least be back under heel.

The Absolute Plot, at last, would move confidently forward.

His men from the temple stand at the ready for orders. Better to get them posted in the city, just as soon as it was certain it was time.

There is no remaining trace of Bhaal's living flesh.

The Archduke halts mid-step.

Bane does not speak needlessly or without thought. His Chosen knows to heed his words and their clear intent.

Hear me. This changes nothing. The plan continues with or without Myrkul and Bhaal's hands to help guide it.

And he feels something like a hand closing around his mind. Not enough to hurt, but a clear sign it could. A warning reminder.

He responds immediately, with no waver in his voice because that is what that silent command requires. "This changes nothing." The Dark Urge is dead. And he feels the band around his chest tighten. He draws in a resolute breath. Because he will take in air. He will not show what presence in his mind and in the very air around him does not want to see. "The plan continues."

He was always going to be gone. Cruel to have deluded himself into thinking otherwise.

Feel that, and be done. There is more to do, imminently.

The disciples go about their duties at his back as he continues to cross the chamber. He doesn't notice when they actually fall. Neither of them do.

When they bring the stones, take them or bring the rogues along. It is time to assume your rightful place.

And that voice bleeds into every tendril of sensation, washing over those places that hurt like something caustic, refusing to soothe but unwilling to be what is chased away. Bane feels more present, like a firm hand on his shoulder. A presence in the doorway of his mind.

Prepared to see the end.

Reminding him, perhaps, that he rules alone today. As he should. But he never was, truly.

Footsteps bring him toward the back of the chamber. Some of the traps arm themselves.

He doesn't notice them immediately switch off.

The Black Hand is telling Enver now, because what would have happened if those people came to him and he knew only then that the battle with Orin had cut their numbers down? Rude. An attempt to compromise him. But he is prepared.

Feel what you must now. Then never again. You promised yourself this once already.

He doesn't realize until it's too late that the person he senses nearing him is not, in fact, one of his footmen.

Black. The feeling of fingers that were bearing down bleedingly hard, pried away.
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[personal profile] unspooling 2024-08-30 03:02 pm (UTC)(link)
The reassuring weight of that hand in his own, palm over palm and here and now - at the start of the end - all he really wants. He squeezes just enough to be felt, but not enough to be painful. His eyes drop to their intertwined fingers, lips twitching up at the very edges as he realises he's attempting to burn this moment into his mind as though he's worried about forgetting again.

He just hadn't understood all that Orin had taken from him. Not until it's almost, in some ways, too late.

"Would you have a kiss from me now? Or have me deliver it when I return?"

The hint of a humour older than this moment, stretching back to before. Something remarkably casual given their previous positions and modes under which they had been introduced and made colleagues of a kind. In this moment, there's also the new. The quiet confidence that doesn't need violence to be persuasive.

No, this is a way of being that had come all too easily the longer they continued their relationship. And that had been just part of what he'd been forced to sacrifice, in the end, and it had been for Bhaal.
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[personal profile] unspooling 2024-08-30 03:29 pm (UTC)(link)
"I will return to you," comes the low murmur of a promise, as though the air has been softly stolen from his lungs. Truthfully he finds himself caught up in a cresting wave of complicated emotion. He needs to leave but he wants to stay. Staying will seal their fate, though, and so walking away is the only option.

But the kiss is enough for now, all he needs to fully settle into a place still plagued by new longing but tided over by that moment of intimacy.

He holds the smaller man in his arms for a long moment, fingers scrunched into the fabric of his clothes. Breath eventually finding him again and he resumes a steady inhale-exhale.

"I will restore us," he adds, catching the brightness of the new shade Enver's eyes shine with. They have so much to discuss, and he intends to make sure they have time after to share themselves.

"I will leave you in capable hands. These people have been my only source of comfort and companionship since the crash. We will have work to do - reparations to see to - after this is done. But until then, I trust them to keep you safe, and I ask you to trust my judgement if you find yourself unable to trust them."
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[personal profile] unspooling 2024-08-31 06:46 pm (UTC)(link)
The words - 'your victory' - aren't lost on him. And perhaps that's something he files away for later because he does believe there will be one. There has to be. The complexity of this particular situation, the many threads that are woven together, albeit fraying in places, are going to take time to pick apart again. Difficult as it may be, he welcomes the chance to work through it all and that he may do this with Enver is something he's only just realised is the fundamental basis he wishes to work from.

So he simply nods, holds the other man's gaze for a moment and then feels the need to turn to business proper else he never will.

"To the matter of the brain," he says with a note of finality and pulls away, moving towards the chapel doors and to his companions beyond. He hopes that Enver will follow him, but he understands if he needs a few more moments alone.
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[personal profile] unspooling 2024-08-31 10:07 pm (UTC)(link)
In the end, they had needed to call in every ally and favour they had banked, and still the group of them had to fight tooth, nail, claw and tail to make it across the chosen battlefield. The drow half-elf, formerly bhaalspawn, now something else by choice, doesn't hesitate when it comes to the final call.

The brain must be destroyed, there is no other option.

Everything that comes after happens in a haze, time streaks by and they fall from the sky on a netherbrain careening out of control. He thinks briefly about the sweet embrace of death again, remembers how peaceful it was, and then recalls that he's got more to do. More things to achieve. More time to fill. More dawns to do better.

He has Enver, too. He cannot contemplate a world in which the former human did not survive.

He's dripping as he climbs up onto the dock, following his people as they all stumble in from what feels like the wildest storm of an indeterminant time. The city still stands, though parts are looking worse for wear than others. And perhaps they do too, the party that return bloodied and weary but not broken. Not defeated. There will be a time for that but, for now, he closes his eyes and just breathes.
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[personal profile] unspooling 2024-09-02 09:30 pm (UTC)(link)
The blur of battle had seemed to slow into a lengthy descent as the brain had sailed straight into the sea off the coast. Being plunged into water for the second time in short order had been the thought his mind had fastened on to, as though the enormity of everything else was just a fraction above what he had left to spare. A humorous notion despite the very grave prospect of drowning.

When his gaze locks on to Enver's, he feels whatever scraps of resolve he has left melt almost instantly. The man is standing perfectly in tact, as though the city behind him isn't aflame and crumbling. As though there hasn't just been an assault on life as they all knew it.

He'd promised he would return and this moment, fully realising he has delivered on that promise, steals from him the last of his exhausted-many-times-over strength. He doesn't dare take another step, not with how close his knees feel to buckling. Soon enough somebody will come along with some healing magic, or will press a potion into his hand, but right now he just stands and stares. Congealed blood clinging to him. Bruised and battered and... smiling.

He's got enough for that. Always enough for that, he thinks, as his lips curve upwards and he starts to laugh, cheeks surprisingly wet with more than just sea water.
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[personal profile] unspooling 2024-09-03 10:09 pm (UTC)(link)
It may be Enver's swooping in to aid him that keeps him on his feet, not least the fact that he's so much bigger than the man propping him up. It feels supremely unfair to simply collapse upon the man and force him to engineer some kind of way to drag him to wherever they're going next. And he doesn't know where that might be.

For the first time in a long time he doesn't know what the next step is. Nobody is here to tell him, he has nobody in particular he needs to answer to. He can do what he pleases, and whatever he chooses to do will be his to own and take responsibility for.

It's terrifying and exciting all at once.

Fingers grip at Enver's shoulders, then loosen again as though he's remembered something important and it's bad.

"...when we did this before, I remember you... bruised."
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[personal profile] unspooling 2024-09-04 01:41 pm (UTC)(link)
"Enver," comes the murmured reply and it contains so much that, at first, it might be hard to discern what the overriding emotion might be. Even he isn't sure, the mix of emotions a crescendo bouncing off the inside of his skull and aching in his chest. His physical reaction is immediate otherwise and it is wildly different to what it would have been before.

The desire to comfort is almost intrinsic having spent even just a short amount of time with his companions, and that blossoms in the way he wraps his arms around the smaller man and holds him. His mouth presses into his hair, his own eyes closing as they share this moment without a care for who may or may not still be watching.

Their time for reparations has only just begun, but for this moment nobody thinks to rob them of this reunion. Not when they have all just overcome so much. He'd be surprised if any of them were thinking of sleeping for less than a tenday, if not more.

"I have you."
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[personal profile] unspooling 2024-09-07 04:13 pm (UTC)(link)
The privacy they may have been granted in the quiet retreat of Enver's office - as private as any Chosen of a deity could be afforded - it's surprising how much they also have here on the dock. Surrounded by his companions, each of them is still trying to make sense of their own reality now. For some that's easier than others. Eventually his attention is captured by Astarion who yells, is suddenly racing to find some kind of shade from the sunlight.

It's enough to remind him that he has so many people in his life now that he gives himself to in a way he had never been able to in the past. And he wants to share all of it with Enver, no matter how much concern he may also hold over how different things are now.

There is time now to explore it all, and more. Time to take stock and understand how they move forward together. Though first a quick check-in with his friends, and then on to find the two of them somewhere to retire to together.

Eventually that takes the form of a pitched tent on the outskirts of the city. Up high and overlooking the Gate provides quite a different picture than it had been only recently. He's set everything up and is taking in the view, and reminding himself of how much reparation he will need to do, when he senses he isn't on his own anymore. Glancing over his shoulder, his mouth curves up into a warm smile.

"I know this is different to what you have been used to lately."
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[personal profile] unspooling 2024-09-07 07:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Brooking no argument is far easier when he's just saved Baldur's Gate, and so when they are given leave to slip out of the city and make for the edges, he's relieved. He's tired in a way that a night of sleep won't fix, but he'll eventually get back to his baseline, and he's grateful he doesn't have to waste more energy arguing.

When he catches Enver's gaze, it's a reminder that the man may need help finding his new baseline. It's still shocking, bizarre even. But if the former human is able to find a way forward, he'll be loyally beside him every step.

"Would you like to join me here?"

He's at the edge of the wall, taking in the view as he finds it, but has enough wherewithal to understand that perhaps this close might not be comfortable. He's not sure where they stand, in fact, but the pressure of having to rush through everything else up to this point simply isn't to be found anymore. They have time.
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[personal profile] unspooling 2024-09-08 04:21 pm (UTC)(link)
"I do," he affirms, his expression not remotely careful in comparison to Enver's. Perhaps it's that he doesn't need to school his features into anything for fear of who might see. Given his skill with control - and how little he feels the need to prove that these days - maybe it becomes clear that he doesn't care to hide his feelings beneath his expression. An upshot of their newfound situation, and something he just feels strongly enough about to let the inquisitive curiosity bubble to the surface.

He wants Enver to step in closer and join him, and without a full set of memories to contend with, he's also inviting the man to set the pace and tone. It seems only right that they remain as respectful of each other's boundaries as they must have been in the past.

"I would like to introduce myself properly," he adds after a few moments, turning around from the still smoking vista ahead of them to fully face the other man.
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[personal profile] unspooling 2024-09-08 07:20 pm (UTC)(link)
The height difference between them isn't as pronounced as it is with others, so his gaze isn't slanted too far down as the man steps closer. There's a moment of confusion that bubbles to the surface, a strange feeling of wondering why they aren't already sharing the same breath. But it's as unfamiliar to him as so much else he doesn't remember, even without a film of amnesia over it.

Even the memories he has back now aren't sharp. Not the way they would be if they had never been disturbed or carved from his brain. The hand he offers is steady, less murderous than it has been for a long time. He holds it out, palm up, waiting to see if the other man feels comfortable or not setting his own into it.

"Memories are returned to me sometimes without prompting. Sometimes with a trigger of the senses. I... could not recall my name, before, could I?"
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[personal profile] unspooling 2024-09-08 07:52 pm (UTC)(link)
The hand in his own feels like contentedness. Physical but not in a way he may have struggled with before Orin and confronting Bhaal. Rejecting him. Purged of unholy blood and left for dead.

Whatever whispers of violence he still hears are from decades of scars on his psyche, but they're far easier to breathe through. All of it has brought him to this point where he just... feels Enver's hand in his own. Feels the warmth and weight of it and doesn't have to wade through the visceral urge to maim or kill.

He takes a moment to just enjoy it, eyes dropping to look at their hands together before they return to Enver's face.

"My name is Kael." It's what he had surrendered when he had joined the cult, and it had been taken from him gladly. Perhaps it was Bhaal taking back what darkness he had imbued in him that uncovered that memory.
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[personal profile] unspooling 2024-09-11 09:45 pm (UTC)(link)
It's a momentarily momentous feeling for his name - the one he remembered had been given to him by his parents - to be cushioned so neatly upon Enver's tongue. Noteworthy in how his mind seems to latch on to a feeling not too dissimilar from the other man's. Fleeting memories of his opposite number's name on his own lips. To have his own spoken aloud now by somebody he thinks he would have shared it with first, had they been together, feels briefly rapturous.

"I enjoy the way it sounds when you say it," he confesses easily, not all too interested in trying to play anything as reserved or not as affected as he is. Very simply, he does not imagine a moment where he wouldn't want to share his delight in this.

It feels like there is so much to catch up on, but he can barely contain his need to step in closer and do away with the last remaining moonlight between them.

"Enver, I..."

It's not so much hesitation as a pause as he feels a wave of emotion start to crest inside him. How close to devastation they had skirted in more than just a plan now aborted. Beyond that. He can hardly keep the significance of this moment to a manageable level.

He should ask - he knows that - but the moment calls for nothing less than the way he lifts his free hand and curls it around the back of the shorter man's neck. Stepping in, he presses his forehead to Enver's and, if he's allowed, dips down just enough to seal their mouths together in a chaste kiss.

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